Okay, so first of all:
How are you guys doing I know I'm a terrible person for ignoring deviantart for so long and then suddenly showing up and bothering you with pointless status posts and depressive poetry things that even I know aren't worthy of your time and yet I still find myself to write them I'm so so so sorry but I'm a piece of crap, please forgive me? Now, back to the task at hand. I'm sorry (
again) for not writing this thing sooner. I have to make it a habit of mine, to write a journal thing, because otherwise you'll only see the depressive stuff and you may think God-Knows-What I'm doing with my life. And I don't want you to be scared for me, because I may be a piece of shit but I still have a few people to prove wrong, so there's still stuff for me to do. Also, I have to get back to writing, and edit, edit, edit, how I miss those days when I had nothing to edit. Eh, no matter, back to the task at hand.
My job will surely give me grey hair at the end of it. My contract ends in August, so after that I'm unemployed again. Funny, considering I wanted to end it all in August. Frick me, even now I'll add depressive stuff inside a silly journal thing. But yes, I wanted to. I'm not sure what I want to do now, it's only March, but my feelings are getting the best of me again and I'm more sad lately. Those few weeks I wasn't able to post stuff was because I'm hella tired and once I'm home, I sleep like a log. We had a stomach bug at school, and I've had a girl barf on me, because she wanted to mark me as her favorite teacher. Not the best kind of mark but yeah. Also, I give you a small advice:
NEVER WORK WITH SOMEONE FROM YOUR TOWN/CITY/VILLAGE!!! It's simply TERRIBLE. I work with two ladies from my hometown/village, and let me tell you it's HELL. I've had people look at me as if I've had grown a second head on my neck just because the STUFF they tell about me. Ugh, I hate gossip.
They're pissed off because I'm not going to church every Sunday as a good Christian should. WELL, FUCK ME THEN, BECAUSE I THINK THAT I CAN BE CHRISTIAN EVEN IF I'M NOT WASTING MY TIME IN CHURCH AND I ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING RIGHT, LIKE PRAY AT HOME AND BASICALLY BE A GOOD PERSON WHO DOESN'T CARE IF SOMEONE IS GAY/STRAIGHT/ASEXUAL/BI/A LIZARD LOVER OR WHATEVER. YOU'RE A DECENT PERSON TO ME? OKAY, I'LL BE A DECENT PERSON TO YOU. YOU ACT LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT? I'LL IGNORE YOU. YOU'RE BOTHERING ME AND STILL ACT LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT? I'LL DESTROY YOUR STUPID ASS WITH PUNS OR LOGIC, YOU DECIDE. So, again, back at the task at hand. We're renovating bathroom so every bit of my paycheck goes to that. I'm not angry at that, really, I'm pretty happy actually and I look forward to having a nicer looking bathroom. But I'll miss my bath. Also! I'm wondering if I should attend University again. If I've had a chance to keep my job as a teacher, I would have to, because I don't want to be a nuisance again. But if I didn't, would or should I try it again? I went on Uni once, and nearly died because I let stuff "get" to me. I'm just so... ugh.
So, weekend. It's Saturday, yay, and it went somehow okay. I was writing a bit, but I'll edit it today perhaps. I'm too lazy for that. I also have to edit a pet project of mine here, a fantasy story of sorts. It has to be perfect. Okay, I'm running now, there are some things I have to take care of.
Lova ya darlings~!!!