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Have I wept enough
Cold as a stone her lips were,
her tears salty as the sea;
but her eyes showed fires untamed.
And I would not break, she promised herself,
I would not break, I would not show them anything;
anything at all, no smiles, no happiness.
Deep into the night she wept,
her wails heard in the wind and caws of crows;
yet she persisted.
The morning came.
Small mystery in the sunlight, so red, so beautiful,
pretty as a picture, with her as a main character;
have she wept enough?
Have I wept enough?
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Literature
Tell me then
Alone; alone have I waited
for the one reason to live,
or to have a better life,
alone; alone I was
'But you can never get away from yourself' my inner side told me once,
when I was so down I could drown myself in pills and suffering and alcohol.
What does it matter that I was only fourteen then, what would it matter if I
was only seven, since it was the start of my pain?
Now tell me, Socrates or Plato, or whoever is it up there and whoever from you
talked about life, why the hell is mine so messed up, why the hell am I the only
one who has barren ground in front of them while others have flowerbeds and poetry
and love and peace and laughter.
I am ripped at every edge of
my battle hardened body,
but believe me, please believe me,
I still can be a master piece.
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Literature
Rare
My ceiling is white;
like the four falls around me;
and the floor is made of wood with
a weird shape.
Not knowing what is right and
what might be wrong, I often
found myself at the seemingly
middle ground.
It wasn't the case now;
now it's just me being this
obnoxious, loud human being
full of faults and regrets.
With a heart that was broken
one too many times;
with soul that was sold to someone
who didn't want it.
I cannot get it back now.
And that makes me livid.
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Literature
Six word story
Your demons were angels to me.
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Literature
Seven word story
Should I be sorry for loving you?
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Literature
the snow in your soul
Your heart, oh how your heart
called for me, how sweet was the sound.
Oh, and your eyes, how your eyes
shone so bright I couldn't look anywhere else.
And what of your hands, you wonder,
what was with your hands that I found mesmerizing?
Perhaps the fact that they could hold my own hands
and my throat at the same time.
Or perhaps I'm just as messed up as you are,
for staying with you is making me alive
but I'm feeling cold.
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Literature
Do not lock your heart from me
Dust settled inside my bones;
I should have known,
following my heart meant losing my sanity.
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Literature
Everything
Everything you do affects everything there is,
I remembered, numbly staring in front of me.
Countless children under my care, always watching
with big, doe eyes, as if they knew secrets of the universe.
What of me, I wonder, what of useless child in an
adult world, adult body, with adult responsibilities.
One comes to me, big brown eyes chasing fear in mine,
she grasps my hand or sits on my knees and sleeps away.
But I still feel as if I was a rock, unchanging and cold,
lonely and dry, like something someone lost and never wanted back.
Too many snowflakes were eaten last night,
today my stomach feels like it's on fire.
It's time to eat more.
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Literature
Not getting better
My time will come,
with hushed whispers of
tick - tock, tick - tock,
If I am to die,
cold, weak, and lonely,
I would not feel anger.
I am dense, an idiot,
thinking I was getting better,
thinking I was doing fine.
Hopefully, the pump that
is keeping me alive,
bursts open and I drown.
The time is coming,
the clocks are ticking,
tick - tock, tick - tock,
tick -
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Independent
I keep so much inside;
the pain and tears.
I hug them close at night,
kiss their foreheads and mutter:
"I love you, don't leave me."
And that changed me,
changed the person I ought to be,
I don't recognize myself.
But you were my killer, too.
You promised you'll be here for me.
Where are you.
Where are you.
Where are you.
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Literature
Enough?
Sometimes you get this strange feeling
when you leave a place.
Not because you're going to miss it, or the people,
or that tree in the park down the street.
You might start missing yourself,
the kind of person you were at that time.
At that place.
And nothing will ever be enough to bring you back.
But sometimes following your heart means
getting a little crazier in the end,
a little stranger
and you'll end up feeling a little more free
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Literature
The sound of submarines
Swallowing became painful.
Once, I would have said
that this isn't real, this isn't me,
this reduced human, thinking of things
that would make a grown man weep as if
he was born few minutes ago.
Painful, as if razor blades danced
inside my throat, inside my stomach,
inside my tubes, inside my whole body,
while I sit on the sofa and listen to my
mother complain.
Soon, I'll become a slave to them,
small little victories, always small
and round and white and bitter, not better,
maybe I'll even smile a little more, or
a little less.
But when your body is working against you,
what is there to smile about.
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Literature
Lost
I have lost myself again;
without really knowing
and perhaps it is better now
Perhaps to be lost is not so bad
I remembered Christmas, those
when I was a six year old kid
clutching a book to my chest
and when I was asked:
"What do you wish to see
under the tree?"
I always answered that I wish for
serenity, peace, silence, calm.
And I was often ridiculed for that,
what kind of person wishes for those things
But I wished for them,
and now I may have them,
and I'm not sure what to do with them
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The poorest of poppies
I have this old look at romance,
this old fashioned look that says you shouldn't
disrespect those who gave you life,
or those who you love enough to want to create
new life with
The generation I live in lost the meaning
of true love, for the songs I hear in the radio
or the way men and women speak to each other,
it sounds like wolves,
always hungry for raw love but not being able to give it
The way I would love a man is lost to some,
and I'm not saying it to make myself look better
in your eyes, or in the eyes of someone else
I would kiss him
Yes I know it might sound base, boring,
but a kiss on the forehead, or kiss on the neck,
or even kiss on the lips, isn't it a way to show
how much you cherish a person?
I would praise him
Alas, another dull action I could do for my sweetheart,
my soulmate, my love, but isn't it better to show someone
you care and you see and you notice anything they do
and you love them the same?
I would listen to him
Dear me, aren't I a bore, you ask?
For who cou
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Literature
Goodbye
It was painful, watching the crimson Sun hide behind the clouds and knowing I'll never see you again. Being seated on the meadow where we used to sit together, counting leaves around us and laughing at how unlucky the neighbor dog was, always barking at us, but not being able to get to us. And then the Sun hid, and it was dark outside - and inside, because you weren't with me, and the dog was quiet except for a few whimpers that matched mine.
I knew his name, you know? Hugo. What kind of person names their dog that way, I have no idea. But Hugo knew I missed you. Still do. So now he sits with me, for he was able to chew his way out of that pathetic place where he lives. It's been, what, four years now? How the time flies, you've no idea. The place we loved is desolate, but trees still grow there and the roses we planted are yellow now, not red. I don't know why.
Hugo isn't walking around much anymore. He's a seventy-seven year old mutt, so what would you expect. But he still looks at m
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Tartaros
I'm tired of sprinting forward
and I don't know how to swim
Here, I am not I,
I am them, all
of the souls on the other
side of the river
What kind of people are we
murdering each other with
forged confessions of love
and rusty promises
Oh, fortune of life,
why have you cheated me so
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After locking the front door you made your way to the middle of the living room to set down your bounty of goods and relieve your aching muscles. Although only one item was exclusively for you amongst the bags of merchandise. You had been doing a bit of late Christmas shopping and just happened to come across another Star Wars: The Force Awakens poster with a new dark-masked and red lightsaber bearing character while at the store. You simply couldn’t resist the opportunity.
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2.) What are your characters most prominent physical features?
3.) Name one scar your character has, and tell us where it came from. If they don't have any, is there a reason?
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Single again and love poems are coming
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~Maria;Mayu;Maja;Majka~
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Slovakia
Hello~! I see you got yourself into my profile, here's an imagination cookie for you - :iconchocolatecookieplz: cookies are so tasty ~
Anyway, I do think you came here for a reason, be it anything you can think of, and well, it would be rude of me not to introduce myself so here goes:

I really do not know how to introduce myself. I could say that my name is Maria, but most people I know call me Mayu or Maja, but that would be basic info you can see up there under PongIsIT. You may call me Fox, or Cookie, or whatever you wish to call me, whatever you think I should be called. I'm from a small tiny hamlet in the middle of nowhere, but the place I'm from is called Slovakia. I was born back in 1995, when there was a tense situation in Europe, just a few years before/after revolution. It was a trying time for my parents, since I have three older siblings and everything was too expensive back then.

Most of you surely stopped reading by now, I'm sure.

Anyway, I was a student of Graphic Design back in high school, and I loved to do anything with graphic, from making brushes to posters. But I can't draw, I can't draw a tree without wanting to rip my hair out. And now I write. Not that great and not that much but I write.
I'm a Leo if you're into zodiac stuff, I would be boar, in Japanese zodiac. I think. That would mean I'm Salmon in Native American horoscope and a Fish in Celtic horoscope, if you're into zodiac stuff.

What am I doing here, you ask? Well, to tell you the truth, reader, I am not quite sure. I've been a member of the Deviantart's family for a long time now, but I started to be active only recently. Why? I do not know, perhaps I was just a lazybutt. Oh what am I saying, I am a lazybutt. And my life is complicated, just like my life choices. I'm not much of a optimistic person you see? I'm much more of a realist with a dark sense of humor.

What kind of a person I am? Well, you will find out when you look at the nice collection of stamps I have, and I'm a member of so many groups, dear reader, and I will link them here... but you can find them lower down there somewhere.


I love you, dear reader!
Have a great day!

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Slovakia Stamp by l8 It's Personal by Chiminix Homophobia is STUPID! by Micro-Softdrink I'mGonnaBeUsingTheseCuteTemplatesBeware by endler I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOUR SKIN COLOR IS. by World-Hero21 Seriously, Stop (long description) by I-am-Britta It's Not Just Installed Into Kids by endler coffee stamp by Nixiona Stamp: It's not my fault by Riza-Izumi I am sorry I bullied you, you bitch. by Little-rolling-bean This Stamp's Hard on the Eyes Isn't It by endler For Those in the Community or Those Supporting by endler Now For Something Entirely Different by endler Stephen King Quote Stamp by KristinaHlopec Anxiety is NOT a Joke Stamp by lesbian-mermaid Depression is NOT a Joke Stamp by lesbian-mermaid Morality and Judgment by GoddessCureMystic Bad company by GoddessCureMystic Too Many Stamps by MaruLovesStamps cokkie stamp - Fire-Feline by stamps-club Gay People, Your Child, and You by endler ain't nothing wrong with being a virgin by BaconMagic Stamp: Selfishness by Riza-Izumi Shitty Excuse by FlacidPenis Wha - Hey! Another stamp talking about rape! by Catthylove
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Hello my friends. I know, another journal full of "I'm sorry"-ies, but I can't help it. I've been down lately, so down that even the deepest pits of hell seemed nicer than this place. I'm always sad, and empty, and everything or most things have lost their meaning to me again.

I'm a shitty friend, and sister... I am a shitty soulmate. 

No, don't tell me that I'm not, because I am, I know I am. I've been thinking about stuff, stuff I shouldn't think about and then I get so sad and so angry and so... empty. I should've been used to feel empty, why the hell aren't I used to that? I've always been empty.

My work is keeping me grounded somehow. Kids, a few of them, have shown an immerse trust in me. But how can you trust someone who doesn't trust themselves? 

I'll be back eventually, you don't need to worry about me. You really don't.


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DallasBlack Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016
Have a good one!
Cake 
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ryuu-samazx Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016  Hobbyist
happy birthday Birthday cake  icon
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nykolasandrews Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, you gorgeous human <3
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evilcrowbar Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016  Professional General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY  !!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
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RampageMeerkat566 Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2016
Happy birthday.
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unfaithfulstars Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2016  Student General Artist
hello dear, it's been a while. hope you're doing well! :love:
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ryuu-samazx Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2016  Hobbyist
hi :)

how you been ?
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GwynConawayArt Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2016  Professional
Thanks for faving!
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You're welcome~! Have a great day/evening~kaomoji set 1 7/19 kaomoji set 1 7/19 
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redhawk1986 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2016  Professional Writer
Thanks for faving my journal! :)
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You're welcome~! kaomoji set 2 15/67 Have a great day/evening~kaomoji set 2 15/67 
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:hug: you too!
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PoetryOD Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2016
Thanks for the fave :]
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You're welcome~kaomoji set 1 9/19 kaomoji set 1 9/19  Have a great day/evening~kaomoji set 2 56/67 
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Thank you for favoriting the Stupid people drawing! X3
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Thank you for the fav.
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You're welcome~! Have a great day/evening~!Llama Emoji-10 (Shy) [V1] 
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you're welcome :)

and thx lot :D
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Thank youuuu~!!! Merry late Christmas to you too~!!Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] Llama Emoji-60 (Snug or Hug) [V3] 
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